well.. first and foremost, i want to take a second to say a very very very special thank you to the sweet people that take time out just to read my blog.. i know i am just getting started & i am feeling my way through this whole thing.. i truly appreciate your kind words, thoughts & especially your prayers.. God is so good to provide such great people in my life (even from my past) that care about me and support me.. so, thank each of you.. you have really made these blogs feel more worth while..
and also, a peice of good news.. as of this morning, i have lost 6 pounds since the last Monday.. amazing what happens when you cut out the junk.. i have had people tell me "oh it is probably easier for you, since you have had gastric bypass".. yah, no.. i think it is harder now.. because, i TRULY know it is a mind game.. more than that it is a spiritual stronghold that i have allowed (up to now) to be controled by my flesh.. i feel like i am in constant prayer in my life right now.. to avoid temptation.. to stay on track.. etc..
for some of you, you already know this.. but, my weight has caused some farely serious effects on my female health and so my horomones are very discombobulated.. they are all over the place, honestly.. i can't keep up with what is going on.. anyways, i swear my horomones have been in a revolt, DEMANDING they MUST have chocolate or they will tear my body to shreds.. it is like, MORE than just a desire, it is like my body is trying to convince me i NEED chocolate.. it has been a really big struggle.. God has been bringing to mind how my pastor describes his loyalty and covenant to his wife.. he makes an excellent point when he says how horrible it would be if he had to walk around all day long saying to himself "don't cheat on your wife.. don't cheat on your wife.. don't cheat on your wife..".. instead, he says he simply falls more in love with her every day.. so God has been laying that thought pattern on my heart more and more over the last few days.. it is not about what i DON'T get to enjoy.. rather, it is about what i DO get to enjoy.. and i feel the more i fall in love with Him, the more that health, wellness and wholeness will be inevitable.. it is a biproduct of my true desire.. to be ever growing closer to my precious and amazing Abba God.. so i am really trying to shift my focus a bit.. it does not feel natural, yet.. i guess because He is supernatural.. so it is taking me a bit of time.. but God is really leading me into a new layer and a new depth to our relationship.. and i am just plumb excited about it..
chad & i start working out again tonight.. we are quitting what we not-so-lovingly call "sportsdump" and have joined gold's gym.. it is a nice facility & is more convenient for us to get in & get out.. i am really excited and really looking forward to it.. i do love how i feel after i work out.. don't particularly love doing it.. but i love the results.. yaaah
..more to come..
lori! i am so proud of both of you! i love you so much, and you just become an even more awesome sister-in-common-law every day :)
ReplyDeletei just hope you'll pick up the phone when i need a sponsor to talk me down from my face off with chocolate chip cookies... seriously.
no, seriously. they talk to me in my sleep.